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so i havent written for a while. sorry. not that anyone reads this anyway. but.. ya..... nightschool sucks. not in it anymore though.. ill be 18 in 9 or so months. time flies huh? well anyway... im still looking for shannon (my birth mother) her name is shannon lee lewis. or was.... im searching secretly. but ya... so..... see ya laters

i wrote this poem when somboy hung up on me

you said you cared, you said you trust, but when its tested, you make a fuss, you did the worst, that you could do, and now im really mad at you, i dont think its a real big deal, but that isnt how you feel, but i still care, i dont know why, you made me hurt, you made me cry, i love you just isnt enough just show you care and show you trust, dont hang up you never must, for it is low and unjust,

this is a poem i wrote called empty

i am in pain i dont know why im better now but still i cry the empty feeling just wont leave my emotions have deserted me even when im with my friends the lonleyness it never ends i feel like ive been hollowed out an empty shell locked in doubt absent is my state of mind inside im blank nothing to find im not good but im not bad i am lost not scared or sad i dont know what will bring me back feeling is the thing i lack.

wow

wow these people.... grr there on my nerves... ow i havent been on in a year or so... sorry still at new urben... michelle moved to vegas.... engaged to ryan.... friends this year include.. paul..... HE IS AWSOME>> RYANS BEST FRIEND. rachel..... SHE ROCKS! melissa..... cool more laid back. dillhoff..... his names really alex but dillhoff suits him. john david..... hmmm other then that..... im in winters.... sad i miss gronvolds... my parents are phyco and have MAJOR issues... im getting an apartment soon maybe with paul and ryan... YAY ESCAPE FROM THE Psyco PARENTS!!! lol....... ill try to write more often.. the only time i post is at school.. and they blocked my blog so i have to find proxies... and most proxies wont let you sign in just veiw it so.. ya.... rambling on again huh... oh yea IM A JUINOR