hey... frankly idk what to say. my life feels like its at wits end, boyfriend, school, drama, idk what to think. my lifes been rather stress full latley. i have a boyfriend who i love that doesn know if he wants a gf right now.. in the past months ive been cheated on, bad at school, a skipper and into bad things, i dont kno what i want to be or even if ill be able to make it at life. ive seen things and experianced things i cannot put into words. im not even sure if im capable of growing up. im pretty fucked up. not drug wise persay but in general.all i know for sure is that life is pretty tough.. and so is love..... first off i want my relationship with ryan to continue and i want to be with him for the rest of my life... and i recentley had a big ordeal with him because he says he doesnt know if he wants a serios relationship with me, life is tough and it seems almost every day i am tested and challenged with social and personal interactions and obsticals. with less then 5 months before i am 18, i dont feel ready to face the world or that i am even capable of it.i am not ready, lately it seems i am on my own, its really hit me that i cannot rely on my parents or anyone else for support. i am truly alone.