over whelemed!

its been hard... things i thought would happen wont...things seem out of reach.. life seems a little pointless. i always thought life had meaning and purpose but now i think i was naive and young. life has nothing instore except diffuculties. im aware that half of our population belives in god but the harder i look the more i belive there isnt any. and were here to fend for ourselves and make life whatever we can. and i am trying as hard as i can but still not achiving any of my dreams. im so frustrated all the time. i ask myself why alot and i regret alot...stopping piano..not continuing ice skating...soccer...art.. i am not good at anything except failing. i even failed at this blog. life is too much work.