full of hate not of life!

drugs are bad drinking is horrible LIES LIES LIES LIES give me a bottle of pills ill down them all i want to sleep forever love its overrated!! if i dont believe in love i cannot get hurt right?? i loved him and he hurt me mentally physically emotionally and then threw me away like garbage. guys are after one thing: causing pain. im locking my heart away in a box. and becoming an octopus man lady. im so frustrated i wanna cry. i cant cry i can pretend im ok. i do pretend i am ok but i am still hiding behing my mask old worn and dusty from new urban.. enjoy her buddy.. so your with her not with me i hope she sweet and so pretty. i hope you never see my face again. i hope you miss me i hope you wish you could undo it. i hope you try.. because when you do i will break your heart like you broke mine. there is a new guy who wrote a poem to me. from the heart and the only thing you ever gave me was a sprained wrist a bloody nose bruises... he makes me smile you made me cry.he makes me feel better when your bringing me down... even tho were over you continue to hurt me. push me down and he is the one that helped me back up. i hate you for making me love you. and now... you have lost me. there is no hope for you because now.. i am his. and i am no longer bruised or cut or hurting. my scars are there but everything you ever gave me is healing..