ill be there

listening to all be there by declan. i can cry a little now. for like 3 seconds then its like some one dams my tears. if my heart is so prtected why does it still hurt. why did this happen. i would give anything to have him back. i love him so much. i hate living. i feel alone and abandoned. why is he doing this. does he even care. doesnt anyone ever?? aparently not. people are to caring about themselfs to see who there hurting,scarring,breakind. i wish i could sleep forever